Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Two new things for Freya. One of them human girl made just for me wait until you see what it is!

It's been a very busy week for me, the cute and lovely Miss Freya. Really it has. Human girl says that in two more weeks I've lived here for a year. I'm not sure how long a year is but, I'm told that's how long I've been here. I like this place, they love me here, and I love the human children, those are really exciting.

My latest yummy yummies 

Girl human said that I could get more of this cat food if I really really liked it. I did really really like it, but I ate it so quickly it made me puke. Human girl says that happens when kity cats eat too fast. I feel bad because she had to clean it up and told met that my kitty cat puke was still warm and smelt like cat puke. I sorry girly human Freya didn't mean to make a mess.

I only puked it up because there was only one container and Monkey and I had to share, I didn't want to share mine. Not even with Monkey so I ate it quickly.

But I did like it, she says she'll think before giving me chicken and gravy kitty cat food again.

My new bed

Man human and girl human have way too many sheets and stuff so they put it in this nice blue tote. I disagree they don't have too many sheets and this pillow that's at the bottom of this tote thing, my goodness, I like it. It's nap time for the worlds cutest little kitty cat. I don't think they need to get rid of it do you? It's really extra comfortable. I love it! Thank you human girl and human man for the best kitty bed in the whole wide world.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

30 of the very merry Halloween questions you can't help but want to answer

I missed last weeks Tag Thursday, and because I'm going to be more holiday friendly in some of my posts. I figured doing a Halloween tag would be in order. I love Halloween, and to answer questions to help prepare people for my next few posts feels like I'm going in the right direction

1. Favourite horror or Halloween-themed song?
That's a tough question I think that my favorite Halloween song is "I put a spell on you," there are many people who sang the song. So to give a name of who sang it or the version I like the best is tough.

2. Name something you wouldn’t want to run into in a dark forest or in an abandoned building.
A rabid wolf. Ghosts don't scare me, but rabid animals are scary.

3. Have you ever played with an Ouija Board?
I've played with a pocket Ouiji Board when I was younger.

4. Favourite horror monster or villain?
Sam from Trick R Treat.

5. The creepiest thing that’s ever happened while you were alone?
I wouldn't call it being alone and it wasn't as creepy as it was an odd moment. I was asleep and woke up from a nap and saw a guy sitting in the chair next to the futon I was laying on. I looked again he was gone.

6. If you were dared to spend the night in a “haunted house”, would you do it?
Yes, I'd love to. I would end up ghost hunting.

7. Are you superstitious?
Not at all.

8. Do you ever see figures in your peripheral vision?
Yes, I have. It's not scary as it is odd.

9. Which urban legend scares you the most?
One of the people having their kidneys cut out when they're at hotels

10. Do you prefer gore or thrillers?
Gore. I'm weird, but I love gore. If I wasn't so squeamish or feeling like I'm violating someone, I would love to work with the dead. 

11. Do you believe in multiple dimensions or worlds?
Yes, to an extent. I'm sure there are things more than what we see. 

12. Ever made a portion of any sort?
Nope, I haven't' made any potion. I'd like to try to, my ancestors did it.

13. Do you get scared easily?
I jump and get startled easily but I don't get scared. If that makes any sense.

14. Have you ever played Bloody Mary?
Nope, I was one of those kids that were afraid and was sure something bad was going to happen to me. There was a point that I couldn't sleep facing any mirrors that were in my bedroom because they kind of scared me.

15. Do you believe in demons/the devil?
I don't know/ I think there could the devil and demons, but I don't have any proof.

16. You’re home alone but you hear footsteps in your house, what do you do?
I'm already armed with a fake katana if I hear footsteps.

17. If you got trapped in one scary movie, which would you choose?

18. If you could only wear one Halloween costume for the rest of your life, what would you be?
My self, I'm scary enough, aren't I? I think I'd go with a zombie pinup girl.

19. would you ever go to a graveyard at night?
Sure, everyone, there is dead right? The living scares me more than the dead.

20. In a zombie apocalypse, what is your weapon of choice?
I'd probably go for a small handgun of some sort. I need something that wouldn't hold me down.

21. Would you rather go to a Halloween party or go trick or treating?
Trick or Treating, I don't drink and I love candy.

22. You’re in a horror movie. Are you the final girl, the first to die, the comic relief, the skeptic, the smart one, or the killer?
I'd be the first to die, no doubt about it.

23. Do you have to watch something happy after watching a horror movie so you can go to sleep?
Nope. Usually, my dreams have nothing to do with what I watched before.

24. Whilst watching scary movies, are you the person who yells at the characters, the person with their eyes covered the whole time or the person who falls asleep?
Neither. I just sit and watch the movies usually not moving or jumping, until it's the second or third time watching the movie.

25. Are you the one who gets scared, or the one who does the scaring?
I'm the one that gets scared, or should I say spooked. I jump easily.

26. The favorite scary book?
I used to love the Fear Street Books, I didn't have a favorite book though

27. How old were you when you saw your first horror movie?
I think I was about 8ish.

28. What was your first Halloween costume?
I think I was a pumpkin

29. What are you going to be for Halloween this year?
Myself, I'm not sure I'm doing anything for Halloween

30. If you could have a spooky Halloween pet (black cat, owl, bat, rat, wolf), what would you pick?
It's a black cat or a rat. 

Friday, October 13, 2017

10 Times Freya Inspired me To Be my Best Self

I never saw Freya as a cat that's pushed me to be an amazing person, but looking back at the past year. She has, and because of that. I am so happy to have such an amazing cat in my life. She's an amazing little furry friend.

1. She forces me to get out of bed some mornings: Freya loves to wake me up in the morning by stepping on my neck or on my chest and purring really loud. It doesn't matter if she has food or not. She's stepping on me and letting me know it's morning and we need to spend time together.

2. She knows the perfect way to relax me: If I'm tired and she knows it, she'll come and crawl right on my arm, in such a way that calms me to the point that I fall asleep.

3. Freya makes sure I don't overeat when Freya's around: Freya always wants my food. She's a sweet little kitten.

4. She's a creative influence: When I want to write about something. Freya's always around giving me ideas. If I want to play video games she's around.

5. I have someone to talk to: I have other people to talk to, but Freya on the other hand, if I talk to her, she's not judging me. She's just sitting there purring and giving me those beautiful eyes.

6. She's stopped me from going to the store: This is not the same as checking out what I'm eating. The night she joined our family, she stopped us from going to the store. I was going to go to the grocery store for an energy drink, and candy. Thank you, Miss Freya.

7. I now have a cute kitty water bottle thing: When in pain nothing helps more than a cute and cuddly Freya. She's warm and she's very interactive.

8. She's taught me that I need to sit other places: If you move your feet you lose your seat. It's her motto. I don't mind sitting on the floor every now and then. It's more comfortable.

9. If I want to lose weight all I have to do is copy Freya: The arching her back, running from one room to another and all of the stretches she does.

10. She's intuned to my feelings: Freya is intuned to my pain and tiredness. Nobody has been able to read me more than she does.

Thursday, October 12, 2017

You Can't Begin To Understand Chronic Pain Unless You've been there

I haven't been on or updated much on my health. I do apologize and I didn't want to keep everyone out of the loop of what has been happening healthwise. Because a lot has been happening, and I'd like to help everyone understand what life is like with invisible and chronic illnesses. 

Less Stomach Pain

There is some really good news that I want to bring up first. Good news is great! I wish I could start every day with good news and tons of positivity. The good news is that since I have almost stopped dairy, the only day I actually had it this month knowingly was when the hubby made lasagna. I love lasagna and sadly veggie cheese does not melt. It turns into rubber, almost and I'm sure it could be bounced like a ball if I wanted to. But since that was the only time. I've been having less stomach pain than I have been. I'm proud!

My last diagnosis

I had to have my Thyroid Uptake test rescheduled, I'll explain more about it a different day. But because of that my diagnosis lies in the balance. It's either Thyroid issues or I may have Fibromyalgia, which is an auto-immune problem. I'm pretty much convinced that my body hates me. At least I'm a step closer to knowing what's wrong and how to fix it.

Another change in diagnosis is my migraines have been changed to cluster headaches. They're a bit different than actual migraines. Cluster headaches can happen in a certain period of time, like a few days. 

Medications and how they make me feel

My medication list is still pretty much crazy. It's probably not much different than most people's and I was suggested to be put on Lyrica or something of the sort. But my list is Indomethacin once a week when my headaches happen, Bentyl (when needed), Meloxicam once a day and Effexor once a day. 

The medication list is nothing like the side effects and the way I feel when I take my medications. Most of them can make me drowsy. I'm pain-free but drowsy and don't even get me started on trying to type when you're drowsy, I'm not even sure how to do it. The drowsiness is the reason why I can't cut caffeine yet. I can't function if I don't have something caffeine in it. I've tried. 

What it feels like being in my shoes right now

I wouldn't want to wish how I feel on a daily basis to anyone. If someone who's had a perfect bill of health felt the way that I do every day, with or without my medication, I'm sure they'd be driven crazy. 

As soon as I get out of bed, I'm tired, it doesn't matter if I sleep four hours or fourteen hours it all feels the same. Because I'm tired, and wake up with a stiff neck and back pain doesn't mean that I can lay around all day. I have housework, dishes, the cat box, cleaning up around the house and putting away laundry. It's exhausting. I'm happy I have a husband who will make dinner. I'd make dinner if I felt better.

When I can time to relax, and if I'm having stomach pain I take a Bentyl and write a bit I can't do anything else, as soon as Bentyl kicks in, I fight with fatigue again, and have to drink something to counteract it. While I'm sedated with Bentyl it I still have pain, I'm so achy, on a day to day basis. I want to cry. 

Basically, pain and tiredness are all that I know.  What I wouldn't do to have energy and feel like I can run around and have some fun. Typing words some days feel like the hardest chore I've done. It's the main reason why I'm MIA for some days. I don't want to be MIA but the pain and tiredness envelope me. 

If anyone else feels the way that I do remember, you're strong. You got this. Don't worry what others tell you. 

Monday, October 2, 2017

30 Day about me challenge: What was on my menu today?

I need to get back into the 30 Day About Me Challenge Game. Talking about food is tons of fun, okay maybe just a little bit of fun.

Breakfast: Mom's Best Cocoa Rice

It's the cereal with at a llama on it. I always forget the name of the cereal so instead of Cocoa Rice, I call it Llama cereal.

Lunch: Veggie dog with soy cheese and some applesauce with cinnamon.

The cinnamon applesauce was what made my lunch so darn awesome. I loved the hot dog, but I really love applesauce. Okay, I just really like apples.

Dinner: Veggie burger, with more soy cheese and some BBQ sauce, and chips.

It was a bit of a sandwich kind of day I guess. I've been wanting a veggie burger for a while. So having it made me feel a lot better.

Snacks: Two Three Musketeers and an apple

Yep, I was in an apple mood today. The candy bars were just because I felt like I needed to treat myself at least a little bit, and because I'm a hormonal girl.

Saturday, September 30, 2017

Don't you just hate flare-ups?Tips for living with and getting over autoimmune flare-ups with no risks involved.

"So how are you feeling?" Gets asked so many times. Or explaining to someone I am not sad I'm just tired is so commonplace now I'm sure everytime that I have a flare-up, I'm going to have a list of phrases that I'm going to belt out.

For a very quick update. Monday is the first half of my Thyroid Uptake test, it's going to tell people if I have something wrong with my thyroid. Part of me hopes it's going to get me a step closer to why I feel the way that I do. While the part of me hopes nothing is wrong. It's not that I want to be sick, no way. But I want to have an answer and hopefully, take something so that I can feel like a normal person.

I'm not one to read tons of mumbo-jumbo about flare-ups, while I know they're caused by something. People expect to eat something or take a magical pill that would make them feel better. It's not really what I'm looking for. I'm just looking for ways that I can feel better after a flare. 

Try to relax

It's both mentally and emotionally draining to have a flare-up. Relax, I hate being told to relax even if I'm not so active. Why? Because I don't want to relax. I never have, I want to be active, I want to feel better. Relaxing feels like the easy way out. I know I'm not alone, but relaxing is fine. Relaxing helps you regain your footing. Don't overdo yourself, and take naps if you have to. Flare-ups are exhausting. You really don't need that energy drink to get on with your day, if you're tired and you have a chance to rest.

Find ways to laugh

They say that laughter is the best medicine, same goes with flare-ups. Find times to laugh, now that you're relaxing to find some funny movies and binge watch them. A good mood does usually equal feeling better.

Do what your mom told you

I had a doctor that said that. When you're going through a flare up, remember mom's advice for being sick. Relax, get some food that's good for you, and take vitamins. Mom's advice still works for having autoimmune problems.

Talk to you doctor

If you're having problems with your flare up talk to your doctor rheumatologist. They're able to offer some advice or give you something to make the symptoms not as bad. The times my flares got bad and I became incredibly achy, my NP was able to prescribe me Prednisone for inflammation and it worked great until my next flare happened. The only way a doctor's going to know how you're feeling, and how you're coping with autoimmune problems is to tell them.

 Find out what triggers your flare-ups

Take daily notes about what you eat, how much you sleep, your stress level, and almost anything that you can think of. It'll help you pinpoint your flares and it can help a doctor if you're still in the diagnosis process. I've heard it said before, and I will have to agree, the diagnosis process takes 3 to 5 years, and everything health wise is a puzzle. Put the pieces together on your own. Your doctor's not going to follow you around watching what causes flares

Talk to a therapist

Having a therapist on your list of support people can help a lot. Autoimmune problems don't seem like something that someone should talk to a therapist about, but learning to cope with an autoimmune problem and learning tools to remain calm is the role of a therapist.

Friday, September 29, 2017

7 Rules for Living With Freya, they're cat rules after all

You'd expect a cute little torti cat to have her own rules, but she does. While some of her rules are typical cat rules the rest are her rules, and you must always listen to the diva her self. I asked her what her rules would be because I didn't want her to be mad at me if I got it wrong.

Rule 1: Do not talk about other animals in my presence
If you think that another kitty is cute, keep it to yourself. I don't want to know that the neighbor cat is cute or the cat on the internet is doing something adorable. It makes me feel bad, you call me cute, but I don't know if they're cuter than me or not.

Rule 2: Let me know what you're saying about me
I like people to write about me, but I really need to know what you're writing about. If you're saying something bad, I have the right to claw your beady little human eyes out.

Rule 3: Never turn down cuddles
I like to cuddle, if you don't want to cuddle with me and you push me away it hurts my little kitty cat felines (bad pun), I want loves all the time. You're not too busy to love me.

Rule 4: If you eat honey buns, give half of it to Freya
This is a very important rule. I love honey buns. If you want to have a honey bun to yourself, you should buy two, not one, two because I'll eat half of a honey bun by myself.

Rule 5: Never remind me of my naked belly
I once had a naked belly and I hated it. I was cold and I thought I looked funny. Talking about my naked belly hurts my little kitty cat self esteem. Just don't do it please. You human girls like takinig pride in your hair, what if someone made you take a nap and you wake up with no hair. It's not funny is it? 

These rules are important and must be followed or else you get a mad Freya, nobody wants a mad Freya. 

Thursday, September 28, 2017

Some Call It Tag Thursday, but I call it another window to escape from. Hints about my new blog topic.

I loved hinting toward writing more about food last week when I did my Tag Thursday. I'm still thinking about how Golden Oreos ruined my love for other vanilla sandwich cookies. This week isn't about making people's stomach's growl it's going to be another hint and tie in that I'm going to be talking about the next week and probably from now on. Yes that means last weeks Tag is the start of talking about more food.

While I think this tag is going to be obvious with what I'm going to be talking about more often, but the real answer, that's going to remain a bit of a secret, until next week.

1. Do you have a certain place at home for reading?
Not really, I just like to find a comfortable place for reading. That's all that really matters to me.

2. Bookmark or a random piece of paper?
I like bookmarks if they're around me, but if I can't find anything, I'm no stranger to marking my page with a piece of paper. 

3. Can you stop reading anytime you want or do have to stop at a certain page, chapter, part etc.?
It depends on the book. Sometimes I will stop on a certain page, mainly if the book is boring, but I promised myself to read more. But if the book is good and I'll just keep reading until I find a comfortable stopping spot.
4. Do you eat or drink while reading?
Sometimes, as long as neither or messy, I hate making a smudge in books. 

5. Can you read while listening to music/watching tv?
Usually not, if I hear something else it ruins my concentration and then I have to start the page over again. I can read the page over and over again when that happens. 

6. One book at the time of several at once?
One book at a time is usually best for me. I can get easily confused, just as I do with the TV, and I don't want to get any more confused about what I'm reading than I already am. 

7. Reading at home or everywhere?
I almost feel like Sam I am when I say I like reading here and there. I love to read almost everywhere.

8. Reading out loud or silently in your head?
In my head, nobody wants to read what I am reading, ever.

9. Do you read ahead or skip pages?
It's not something that I'm proud of but I have, I do that if a book isn't mine and I am in a hurry to read it. 

10. Breaking the spine or keeping it new?
Keeping it new, I've had pages fall out of books when the spine is broken. 

11. Do you write in books?
Nope. I hate writing in books.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

The Ultimate Guide to Freya's daily life. What it's like to be a diva

People ask me, "Freya, what's it like being a cat? It has to be a boring existence right?" They have no clue what my life is like as a cat. It really isn't really super duper boring. But people don't really know that. They just think being a cat is eating, sleeping, and pooping.Being a cat and being me is more than that.

Every morning at the crack of dawn, I do my "Nosey Rosey" routine. I like to see what's going on outside. People are going to work and school at this time. I have been sure that everyone's happy and walking around. Oh and the birds they fly outside too! I watch them, but I don't want to go outside anymore. It looks scary.

When I watch the birds and people outside, I'm always on the look out for my worst enemy a black fluffy girl cat that I used to not get along with when I was outside. I growl at her from the window and give her mean looks. The neighbor girl once brought the fluffy black cat in my house once. I told the girl and the cat to go away. I Freya don't want any friends. I don't even like Monkey and he has to live here.

After the morning patrol, I eat my breakfast. If a human girl is up, I like to share breakfast with her. She likes to make oatmeal for breakfast sometimes. I love my oats, it makes my fur all nice and pretty. It makes me really happy to share food with her. Yummy! Miss Freya is really really happy.
If girl human isn't wake yet, I go and wake her up. I crawl on her neck or on her back and purr. I purr really loud and hit her with my head. I say, "I love you. You need to get up to feed me." She usually gets up and goes back to sleep.

When I'm done eating I clean myself and sleep most of the day. Sometimes I ask one of the humans to play with stringy. Stringy is one of my favorite toys. No matter how many toys I have stringy means a lot to me.

A human girl and I like to cuddle on her pillow a lot when she's busy writing about Freya or doing work on the internets. She says that I relax her a lot. Sometimes I lay on her and cuddle so much she goes to sleep. I do the upside down super kitty a lot when I cuddle with girl human,
I play with stringy and sleep more. Unless the little girl is here then I want to play with her all the time and sit with her on the couch. She likes watching kitty cat videos and I tell her, "Freya's cuter." well I think I'm cuter. 
I eat some more after all of this. I like eating all the time if I could. The human girl says that I'm a food-a-holic, whatever that means. I think she's just jealous because Freya has cat food and she doesn't. I'd share with her if I could, but girl human says I really don't mean to. 
At night when all are sleeping, I cuddle with either little girl human when she's over or with girl human where ever she is. We cuddle and I kneed her blanket. The human girl says her old cat used to do the same thing. But she wouldn't lay by the human girl because human girl yells and kicks and she was an afraid human girl. I can see why, but the human girl doesn't know that she's hurting a kitty when she's sleeping, so I'm not mad. 

Monday, September 25, 2017

5 ways goals are the new black and why bowls are awesome

I have a new addiction to my food goals. Smoothie bowls it's the one thing, I wished I learned about many months ago, I don't know why it feels so weird that I recently tried making one. Fine, I made one  and failed, my logic on how to make a smoothie bowl wasn't my strong suit. My fist bowl was watered down with nut milk way too much, and tasted like piece of fruit that sat in the water too long. vanilla nut milk with my bowls is no go.
My trick to making a great smoothie bowl
If you're new to making smoothies, the chart from Super Skinny Me helps a lot and it works for smoothie bowls. I'll explain how to turn a smoothie into a smoothie bowl instead. While there's not much difference, except for the the container that the smoothie is in. There are some teeny tiny minor differences.

Welche's Mango Melody, Hemp seeds, chia seeds, and a drop of penaut butter craramel apple dip. While I didn't have fresh fruit the caramel was a good change.


When you're selecting tour fruit. You're going to have to make at least three choices and not just two. You can have only two if you want, but I suggest three servings. I actually like using the frozen fruit combinations that Welch's and most store brands have. Right now I have a Mango Blend, and a Tropical Blend.

You'll need fresh fruit for the top. Do not freeze fruit like bananas if you want it for the top. Frozen fruit doesn't work too well. I like banana's, berries, or even oranges for my topping. Your choice of topping is all up to you.

The Base and the boost

Just like Meghan Trainor has said it's all about the base. I usually only have juice with my smoothies, everything else. Doesn't taste right. When making a smoothie bowl use one cup if you can. The thicker the smoothie the nicer it looks in the bowl. You don't want to slurp up your smoothie, you want to use a spoon. I wait until I get to put the stuff on top as most people do.

Now you have a base give your base a boost if you want to. Boosting your base is optional, but if you have protein powder, flax seeds or even goji berries. Throw them in. You're not going to get a chance to mix it in later.

The Thickener and Flavor

I usually use my thickener for the pretty stuff on top. Mine is usually hemp and chia. Everyone is different. I love the way that it just sits on the top so pretty like. Don't get defeated if your smoothie bowl looks nothing like the one's online. Take time to realize that these people are masters at what they do.

The Fresh Fruit

Last but not least we're back to the fruit. Yeah, add that fresh fruit you've dreamed of. We always have fresh oranges or bananas on hand, but if you want something else feel free to use it.
Why goals are awesome

from super skinny me

If you're ready to fulfill some goals there's many things that can help. But remember these 5 things about can help you realize why they're important.

1. Goals help you live your life better. You're working towards your goal which makes life feel fuller, and it gives you purpose. Once you work towards your purpose and you succeed you're able to make yourself happy.
2. They motivate you. Motivation keeps people alive. You're alive if you're motivated. The analogy of the light at the end of the tunnel is a lot like that. If you know that there's a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you don't see it. It keeps you going, and it keeps you moving. Motivate yourself.
3. You learn to believe in yourself. As soon as you make small steps in your life you realize you're able to do whatever you put your mind to. When you make it to the end it's that feeling that fills you, is amazing. Now that you've made it to the top of one mountain. You're able to make to the top of another mountain.
4. You gain focus. Imagine your goals. You're going to figure out how to get them done. Focus looks good. For example, if you want to own a car, you're looking towards way to make money. If one way isn't working you're coming up with new ideas. Even if you get derailed focusing on your goals is one way that you'll get through life.
5. Goals build character. Character building improves endurance, and courage. I'm a pretty timid person. I rather just let life pass me by. But with goals. Life won't stop, and I have to realize that. Now is not the time to let things pass me.

Friday, September 22, 2017

Why Why Human girl Ain't as Good as She Used to Be by Freya

Human girl thinks I'm silly and kind of mean. I like to cuddle with her when she's sleeping. Cuddling with a human girl is really relaxing for me. I like the cuddles. But I also step on her neck. She says it's not nice to step on a human's neck and when she's sleeping and making too much noise snoring I step on her neck. Yep I step right on it or I step right on her tummy and then she yells at me, "Freya get off," or she wiggles. When human wiggles I think she's playing. She's not. She yells at me then calls me silly! How mean!

She also hasn't been sharing her foods, she says I'm not allowed to eat her cereals, her cereals she says have chocolate in them.Chococlate is bad for kitties she says. But that doesn't stop me from trying to put my paw in her bowl. I will find a way to eat her yummies, even if it is putting my paws in it. I likes foods.

The human girl also hates that I have to smell everything that she's eating, I have to know if it's safe for both her and me. She even poked me with a bean sprout the other day. Silly girl human. But I love to cuddle, so she said she'd share the photo of human girl and I cuddling.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Tag: Thursday 40 Questions about food that you're afraid to ask

It's Tag Thursday and this tag is one that will actually tie into Saturday's post, well kind of. While I won't talk about it too much, but I have a recipe and my goal update that I really want to share. But until then here are some questions that I found on Tumblr about food.

1. How do you feel about golden Oreos?

I'm not a fan of store-bought cookies, there are so many ingredients that shouldn't be in them. As far as Golden Oreos are concerned. They taste great. 

2. What is your favorite dessert topping?

Graham Cracker crumbs, anything can be made better by graham cracker crumbs.

3. What is your favorite flavor/brand of bubble gum? 

If I chew gum, I like Wrigley's Double Mint Gum

4. Favorite cheese?

Milk Allergy. I can't have cheese. 

5. Favorite lunch meat?

Vegetarian meat. I don't mind the veggie turkey. 

6. Favorite ice cream flavor?

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough

7. Best looking food?

Indian Food

8. Best food to put cheese on?


9. Best sexual food?

I have no clue

10. Best tasting drink in the summer?

Lemonade and Root Beer

11. Best tasting drink in winter?

Hot Cocoa

12. Best food for a night out with friends? 

Asian or Mexican, both have vegetarian options

13. Best foods to eat with a roll?

Potatoes, corn, anything that you can have around holiday time usually.

14. Messiest food in your opinion?

Anything with BBQ sauce

15. Easiest food to prepare?

Oatmeal, potatoes

16. Cheapest food you ever ate?

I admit I tried to make jailhouse burritos when I was pregnant

17. The most expensive food you ever ate?

I don't know. 

18. Stinkiest food you ever ate?

Most Indian food smells bad. It tastes good though. I know it's odd.

19. Favorite dipping sauce?


20. Best pizza topping?

When I did order Pizza hut I loved red onion and green peppers

21. Favorite potato chip flavor?


22. The most toxic substance you ever ate?

Meat, dairy and anything with gluten. Most make me sick and make me bloat.

23. Most calories you had in one meal?

Anything from McDonald's is too many calories!

24. Favorite soda?

I'm trying to be caffeine free, so I'll say root beer

25. Favorite flavor of juice?


26. Favorite vegetable?


27. Favorite fruit?

Oranges and watermelon 

28. Worst canned food?

Steak, they have vegetarian steak strips

29. Best side dish?

French Fries

30. Worst fast food restaurant?

Jimmy John's they don't cater to the needs of vegetarians at all. 

31. Best restaurant?

None, not really a fan of eating out

32. Best smelling food?

Mexican, chicken (I'm vegetarian but I love the smell), and fruit

33. Favorite appetizer?

Chips and guacamole 

34. Favorite cookie flavor?

White chocolate chip macadamia nut 

35. Favorite cake flavor?


36. Favorite pie flavor?


37. Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?


38. Ketchup or mustard?


39. Best food to have on a date?

It really depends on the person

40. Most share-able food?

None. I don't share. Hah! Most candies are shareable 

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Here Is What Happens When A Cat Says What None Of Us Will. Things that angered Freya this week.

It's Wednesday, and it's time to have a conversation with Freya about the life of  cute little torti cat. As  I hunan girl tries writing this blog, Freya is demanding            that she be the one to type and not me. I don't know how well she'd do but we'll try this. Mainly because Miss Kitty is mad. A lot of things bothered Miss Freya this week to be honest. She told me to share them with her because I am an awful, awful person I am.

"The adult humans ran out of oats!"

Freya says running out of oats is and brown sugar on the same day is a catastophy. She loves her maple and brown sugar oatmeal with yummy cinnamon in it. Not being able to have any woke the poor kitty out of a dead sleep and she was not happy about it at all.

"Girl human took my bed."

It's not how it sounds. It was cold in the apartment and Freya was laying on my robe. The robe had kitty cats on it to be exact. I needed it, so I tried to slide it out from under Freya. She wasn't happy with me at all. She thinks because the cat on the robe reminds me of her, it means it belongs to her and I can not have it.

"Nobody's sharing their yummy snack with me"

She's one of those 9 lifers. You know one of those cats who believe that they had 9 lives. I wouldn't share chocolate pretzel cookies with her. Or when I'm eating peanut butter and jelly. She always has to have a sniff test to see what I'm having, but the sniffy sniff test sometimes makes her more hungry. She's a diva and thinks she's entitled to everything.

"Don't call another cat cute again!"

I call another cat cute and she attacks me. It's quite weird, but it's what happens when I call any other cat cute or I bring them up in a conversation. Like I said, Freya is a Diva.

"She won't refill my bowl after I eat a few bites"

I give her kibbles and as soon as she eats a few month fulls and there's a little bit of space left in the bowl, Freya believes it's time for me to fill the bowl. I do not need to fill the bowl. I wait until it's empty.

Freya, she's a diva and it's pretty obvious that I have adopted the biggest diva in the whole state. My goodness gracious. Silly little puddy-catus. She's a diva but I love her. Even if she already has a human (the little girl). She did allow me to post pictures of other kitties, that aren't as cute as her (her words not mine)

Monday, September 11, 2017

Challenge day 3: My parents, my strength. Only the memories scare me and make me proud.

I've gotten off course with my 30-day challenge. I think my main problem was day 3 the day I talk about my parents. Mainly my dad. I wasn't ready, it felt like a splash of cold water, even wanting to think about writing about my dad, who has left this a few years ago. I never really had a chance to write about him, other than the day he passed. I have just gotten around to turning his Facebook page into a Memorial Page. Which I had no clue was even possible.

I don't feel fully comfortable with sharing pictures of my parents, even though I did post a few pictures on the day my dad passed. I just can't do it. I just can't, I guess that's another challenge within itself, isn't it?

Boy, Child, Dad, Daughter, Family, Father, Female, Girl

My Dad

It was May 27, when I lost my dad. It wasn't until a few days later when they found him. From what I know about heat and corpses, it's the main reason why advised us against an open casket if we had a funeral. We didn't have a funeral though. We did it the way my dad would have wanted it. We did nothing, he got cremated and now he's at my mom's house with my sister. I don't know if I could feel confident enough to have part of my dad with me. I never really thought about it, and I don't trust kids or animals around the urns. I don't want to clean my dad up off the floor. Which would be something my dad would have loved to make a joke out of.

Enough about his death. Alive is how I want to remember my dad. My dad who was amazingly strong. Never once would I have imagined being as strong as he was. My dad went through this whole diagnosis process that I'm going through now. He had Lupus, RA, Fibromyalgia and who knows what else. He had tons of things wrong with him. I don't remember him complaining, and he was still working to help when he could. He'd be cutting someone's lawns or shoveling snow. He didn't stop. My mom does remember my dad going over to her place and fall asleep sitting up. I never really focused on how sick he was because he didn't show it. Now that I'm in his shoes. I know what he must've felt. Pain, tiredness, and just feeling like garbage.

Not too long before he passed I remember him telling me not to worry so much stuff will happen one way or another and there's no reason to worry about it. He did worry about me and my sister, as all fathers do I'm sure. I never realized how much he worried or helped us until he was gone.

I have many stories about my dad. But I just can't write them without feeling depressed a little. So with that said. I need to cut what I'm writing about him short and talk about my mom at least for a little while.

My Mom

My mom's still very much alive, but like my dad, she's been through her fair share of health problems. One moment in particular. I was 16, and my mom went for a CAT scan. Just to find out she had a cyst on her brain. Not to be confused with a tumor. A cyst is a bit different and is nothing more than a fluid filled sac. That, of course, was one of the scariest things I've heard.

She went to the neurologist for another opinion, and their opinion was to remove it or else she could end up dying. It was either remove it so it was gone forever or they could drain it, and it could come back.

She ends up choosing to remove it. Again turning my life a little on edge. Her short term memory for two years at least, but what felt like an eternity was completely gone. Which came back slowly, and as weird as it sounds. I'm kind of happy I dropped out of school at that time. My mom, even living with my grandparents, would forget where my sister and brother are when they were when they were in school and she would cry. It was tough and shattering.

My mom now has tons of health problems, COPD, congestive heart failure, and diabetes to name a few of her problems. She's really strong women. It's insane to see how strong she is. I never once would imagine going through so many health problems as she has.

I won't get into home life right now with my mom's issues because it's another thing I don't like talking about. All I can say is, I'm happy to have learned to be strong from her. From my dad, who's no longer with us. They are what I hope to mold myself into being.

Thank you

Thank you, mom and dad, you've guys have really made a difference in my life. I don't know where I'd be today if it wasn't for you two. Now my dad who's no longer with us. Thanks! You really changed my life. 

Thursday, September 7, 2017

What can you do about your goals and dreams before it's too late?

After all of the thoughts about goals and dreams that I have for my life, I realized even if I did have body goals and some self-improvement goals. But I never took time to realize that there's more than just goals about my body and ways I can be a better person on the inside. It's crazy to think about not having an end goal in life. Is there an end goal other than death? Death isn't a goal, nor should it ever be. Life is a goal, and living the most fulfilling life someone could live is what life is about.

My goals under a microscope

Since it is Tag Thursday and I need to think about my goals. I turned this into a tag about my dreams and goals. I found the questions on Lifehack if someone wants to use them as well. 

1. What beliefs do you carry that may be holding you back?
There's a lot holding me back I'm not entirely sure if they're all belief related. I'm a person who's afraid of what would happen if I choose the wrong door. Life doesn't give do overs, at least not that I know of, life doesn't have a reset button. I write down dreams, just to let them fade, this has to stop now. If life doesn't have any do overs, I'm not going to ever live these dreams in this life time.

2. What’s your hobby?
My favorite hobby is writing, even when I was a teenager and a young adult, I'd sit in my room for hours on end, working on stories, working on poems. I didn't mind doing something if the writing was involved. It became the one thing I knew didn't cost money and people couldn't take away. 

3.What’s your talent?
I've joked about being someone with no talent for a long time. The truth of the matter is, I have talents. Writing is a strong suit, I have such an imaginative mind, at least when it's creating characters, and story lines. I never had any physical talents that I can think of sadly.'

4.Who do you like to work with?
I'm far from being a people person, but the people I don't mind working with happen to be children and animals. Animals first, they don't have any input and usually rely on a person for their care, as far as domesticated animals are concerned. 

5.Where do you enjoy working?
I don't feel that working online is a good answer, but if I had to pick a place, it'd be somewhere where I'm connecting with animals instead of people. I wouldn't mind working with young children who are curious about animals. 

6.What is the work setting where you’re most productive?
I work better by myself, but I'd work fine if I was with small groups of people, maybe.

7. What are your passions?
I've always noticed little things make me happy, like the smile from someone, or a cat licking its lips because it had its dinner. I guess the one thing that's a passion is making other people or animals happy.

8. How can you turn your passions into work?
After a search of the internet, and thinking about an online friend's son's dreams. I think if I found a job as like an engagement educator, or even possibly getting into some animal rehabilitation. My dreams and passions could really come alive. While I know it doesn't really put much about my dreams of writing something, unless I write books to help teach children how to help animals. 

9. What inspires you?

The internet, and people who've been there for others. It's one of those gratifying feelings, that makes me want to be able to do something. It's great to see people smile after a part in their life where they are stuck.

10. H
ow do you motivate yourself to take action?

I'm really bad at motivating myself to do almost anything lately. I think it's because I'm afraid of the outcome. I can't be afraid of the outcome. What I think I'm going to do to help motivate myself to get to point "B" is watch come of my favorite people who love animals and positivity when I feel like I'm not sure where to go. Followed by writing down my goals, and have some good accountability.

11. What do you dream about 

I dream about being able to inspire someone. I see other's positivity and I want to feed that positivity to them, as much as I can. Inspiring others is probably the weirdest dream ever. But it's where my mind goes when I think about my dreams.

 What have you overcome?With a little help and a push, I finished high school a few years later. I didn't even settle with a GED, I went back for an actual diploma. Most people finish the program in a few months, I finished mine in a month. I worked my tail off, to succeed.

I've had many hurdles such as my mom's brain surgery to remove a cyst on her brain when I was younger, to losing my father, son, and grandparents (my mom moved in with them way before her surgery). I almost could have died from carbon monoxide poisoning as a child, and even got bit by a brown recluse spider. Now here I am staring at what I just wrote realizing that I'm still standing. Things have been dark and grim, there's a reason why I'm still here, I'm strong,

13.How do you respond to what others say about you?

I usually end up taking whatever's been said way too personally, and letting it eat at me for a long time. It's usually people who know nothing about me or the subject at hand. They don't know my life. With that said. It needs to stop, I have to realize if someone knows nothing about my life or what I've overcome. They don't get to have a say.

14. Why are you here?
I've never really thought about why I am here. Why I'm still here. I have stories of things I've struggled with and I'm still struggling with, now my health being the next struggle and hurdle to climb. I'm not the best motivator, but I do have creativity at arms reach.

15. Who do you admire?
When I think about people I admire, it's never celebrities. Most of them didn't battle with adversity and succeed. I think about people who have been through the fire and are still standing. The not literal fire of course. I can't name particular people, but seeing people like that online, in the world we live in on a daily basis. That's the people who I admire. 

16.What are your weaknesses?

One huge weakness and down fall about me is I give up too easily. Like I said in question one, I worry about making a mistake about what road I travel. I need to realize life can be over quickly. I need to stand on my own and follow whatever dream I have.

17. What are your goals?
Going back to school is a huge goal. While I'm not sure what I want to go for, but now that I've written all I have about goals I have a better idea. I'm thinking about going back for something like biology, zoology or something animal related and childhood education. It might be a weird combination, but it looks better than all the other goals I used to have. 

18.How do you plan on accomplishing your goals? 

I said it the other day when I talked about my goals. I'm going to have to go about my goals. Slowly, but go about them with the end in mind. For starters, looking for schools that will be able to teach me what I need to know. It'll be a long process there itself. There's a ton of comparison making. 

19.What are you grateful for?

I'm grateful for being alive, it's important. I'm grateful for learning a ton of little things in life that make me who I am. But most of all I'm grateful for my children, my husband, and my family. I usually don't think about what I really have in life to be grateful for, but now I realize what I really have to be grateful for it makes me feel a bit better.

20.How can you make yourself better?

I need to take slow steps and realize that no matter where my health leads me, there are still options to live my dreams. A lot of auto-immune problems make people sensitive to the sun, and if that's the case that I can't be out in the sun as often, or I have to go out with a hat and be prepared. I still have ways to educate people in doors, or to write about ways to teach people what they need to learn. If I become too sore to write or type. They have programs that type what I say. I have roads to go down, but I have to realize that I need to keep my mind on the other roads ahead. 

21.How can you make the world better?

I can make the world better by contributing what I know right now, and be able to convey how I feel and what I know. It may not be much, but that's why I blog, right now I see it as my contribution to the world. Like right now, I'm showing people how to work on their goals.

What I've learned

I'm going to say it because it needs to be said. I've been thinking all through out my life that it's too late for me to have goals. I'm 31, people already ran past me twice and achieved their goals. While others are sitting around thinking they can't achieve theirs either. That's not really going to help me be productive what's going to make me productive is. Learning about my goals, learning how to push me. 

There's so much I'm going to have to do, and so much I want to contribute, but I think I understand where I need to go. 

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

6 steps for turning your goals into actions

I think it was best said by Garth Brooks, " Too many times we stand aside/and let the waters slip away/Til what we put off 'til tomorrow/Has now become today." It took me a long time to really understand this song, until I started making goals to feel better. I've said I wanted to eat good and start feeling better. Sometimes people don't have a chance to feel better and they die. That's not the route I want to go, I rather not speed up my lie if I can do anything about it. 

Some of my Goals

 I have a handful of goals that I think are very important to feeling better, I'm changing my diet to be caffeine free, diary free, and start taking turmeric along with my multivitamins and a good multivitamin. I'm hoping that my dietary change will cause me to not have as many flare ups, for both IBS and auto immune problems. 

Another goal for myself is only a personal goal, is to do a self care challenge, long story short, it means that I'm going to try to better myself mentally as well. I just need to be on the ball with things lately. Life is short, and I don't want to make it any shorter because I didn't eat healthy or didn't have enough self care. 

Tips I've learned 

1.  Don't look back. Looking back at progress can mess stuff up. If it's hard to believe, if you see how much you progressed, and you're not happy with your progress, it can derail you. You're not going to be able to change what's behind you, just what's in front of you.
2.Tell people about your goals. If other people know what you're trying to accomplish, if it's someone who supports you. It makes the steps easier than being alone.
3. Take things slowly. As much as you want to reach the goal. Taking in too much can be overwhelming. Goals are a lot like eating, if you take big bites you'll be done with your meal first, but there's still a chance you can choke. 
4. Record your process. It's not the same as looking back, when you're recording your process forget about the time frame, worry about the end. Like with my eating better, if I see that I'm eating better, and I'm feeling better it'd motivate me more. 
5. Read motivational quotes. Yes, quotes or even song lyrics can be helpful. The Garth Brooks' song I listed is one of those songs that will push me. People need that, they need to read things that are positive. 
6. Be honest with yourself. Sometimes we make goals that we shouldn't have made, they'll never even make it out of the gate. If we know that, look for a back up plan or new goals. Sometime our end goals won't work out. It's better to be honest rather than holding on to hope that isn't there.

Goals can be tough sometimes, but in the end, if we keep our head up high, the end will be closer. There's no need to run or back track and sometimes friends and family can be a great goal companion. But remember you're the only one in charge of your goals.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Day 2: My First Love

My first love, if you'd call it that, I was 7 years old and the kid that lived down the road from me was a year older than I am. We'd sit and play games together watch movies together, and there'd be times that I'd go over to his house to play Nintendo or something.

I liked him, he liked me. Like I said, I don't know if what was between us happened to be love or not. He did try to kiss me when I was younger. At least I think I remember him doing it, my memory of the past is still foggy.

I tried talking to him a few years ago, but he still thought I was cute and the conversation he made was all about that. I didn't really feel comfortable talking about how he still thought I was cute, and that he'd want me to move in with him. He's married and has a kid of his own, I would not have moved in with him, never ever.

My apologies for such a short entry, but there's really no much to write about my first love.

10 things Freya hates

Everybody has stuff they don't like, and surprisingly enough it's a lot like that in the animal kingdom as well. Animals prefer one thing over another, that's why I thought I'd ask Freya about stuff she really doesn't like. I'm prepared for the worst. I don't know what her list of 10 things Freya hates are. 

  1. Rachel Ray Cat food
        We've tried feeding her all natural Rachel Ray cat food, and Freya refused to eat any of it. We even went with the motto, "If she gets hungry she'll eat it." It's not the case with Freya, she'll keep on pestering someone until they give in.

  2. People watching animals on TV or on the computer
         Freya is a jealous cat. I talk about a cat I'm watching, she'll come over and sit on the computer with the look of, "Focus on the cat you have, not the cats on the internet." It's kind of cute that she's jealous and annoying at the same damn time.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

30 Day challenge Day 1: About Me

I've realized that not a lot of people know much about me with this blog, other than I have health problems and I've done 30 good things about my challenge, which I will post a list to all the days in that challenge sometime this week.  I'll do the one I started months ago in a few weeks. I just want to do one challenge at a time.

None of these challenges will take the place of anything like Freya's posts or a normal everyday post. These are separate entries. I just needed some way that people would get to know me, as a human, as who I am.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

The ultimate guide to acne

This post was cross-posted at: Freaky Unfashionable Fashionista 
There’s something I really don’t talk about, out of embarrassment, and the fear that nobody understands whats going on. But because talking about my problem is hopefully going to be therapeutic, and I hope other women or men can relate. I have a problem with acne. Sometimes its so bad, I feel like I hit puberty all over again. I don’t like going out in public with a huge zit that not even makeup can cover. Knowing that I’m not alone makes me feel a little better, and I’m not going crazy.

9 Facts about Acne

How much do you really know about acne? To be honest, there's a lot of things that people thought was true about acne which was never true. To shine some light on things here's some facts about acne that I found interesting.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Happy Black Cat Awareness Day

Oh, oh, Freya's here to write a very important message to her cat friends. Especially her black cat friends, because it's Black Cat Appreciation Day. She knows that her black cat friends are being killed every day at shelters, and most people look over them because they're supposed to be scary and bad luck. Freya knows the truth she knows her black buddies aren't as bad as they look. Freya herself has black fur cat on her, well sort of, it's really black brown, and tan, but Freya doesn't care. Since Freya knows the importance of black cat appreciation, she told me to dictate what she says for her, so it'll be easier to read.

A message from Freya 

Dear people, 
Did you know my friends the black cats are put to sleep because nobody loves them enough to take them home? I have a home with people who love me, but these can't don't. They don't know what it's like to have someone hold them when they're scared, they don't even know what it's like to give someone a penguin, because they're in their cages. The cages are so teeny. I went in a cage once, and it made me cry. I had to get out.

Black cats only look different, they're not mean, they're not bad, and they're not scary. My human mom and dad both had a black cat before, and they were cool kitties. I've met some when I was living on the streets, they weren't bad at all, just very misunderstood.

Let me tell you about living on the streets, because I don't think many people understand how scary it is. The only water I could get was water from puddles, or water from lakes and ponds. The lake by my house has bad stuff in it from the hospital. When it comes to food, not everyone is nice, and some days I'd go hungry, and others people would feed me. But what was really scary was at night, it got cold, and dark and I'd shake because it was so cold. I'd hide under cars, even though I knew I could get ran over, just so I could feel safe. When human man and human woman adopted me, I was happy, they feed me when I'm hungry, I have a nice warm bed to sleep in, and a human to cuddle with when I'm told. Every cat should have a human who loves them, even the black cats.


If Freya could do more to help the black cats I would, they need a human. They're even really pretty kitties. Freya has a couple pictures of black cat friends. I haven't met them yet, but I still think they're friends. All cats are my friends.
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This black cat he's a baby, isn't he cute? She's loved by a family. And I think she has such a pretty blue collar I want one. 

Black kitties can even be prettyful. See! I'd like to have a flower crown like this pretty kitty. This pretty kitty looks so very pretty don't she?  She's not mean or scary.

My human says I have those big kitty eyes too. She calls them kawaii anime girl eyes. She's not just saying that because this kitty is from Japan, she calls them kawaii anime eyes because my eyes are big cute and very expressive.
Doesn't Mr or Mrs. Kitty look happy in her people's arms? All black kitties need to be happy in the arms of their people. 

Those are only some of my feline friends. The other friends are still in shelters, being sad and hungry with no crowns, no hugs, and not even a pretty blue collar. Please can someone save a black cat I'd be really happy.

 cross posted at: Fuzzy Furry Paws