Monday, November 13, 2017

Do You Have any of the 9 Warning Signs of Grave's disease

When you get diagnosed an autoimmune problem you think of your life in the past. You're wondering how you didn't notice some of the symptoms before. I know I've been there and was almost sure there was nothing wrong with me.

Some of the symptoms include
1. Excessive Sweating
2. Shakey hands and feet
3. Pressure and pain in the eyes.
4. Enlarged thyroid
5.  Decreased libido
6. weight loss
7. anxiety and nervousness
8. frequent bowel movements and diarrhea
9. Palpations

With the symptoms above and many of the other symptoms that come with Grave's Disease and Fibromyalgia, I start wondering how life was like for my dad. From what I'm feeling now, and knowing he had many other problems and he was out painting someone's house, helping them with something like mowing their yard. Here I am not sure what to do because of my pain, tiredness, and my bladder problems. It's exhausting.

My life after the diagnosis

It's been a week since I was given the news that I have both Fibromyalgia and Grave's disease. A week since my life changed a little bit. I expected the Fibromyalgia part but no having grave's disease that was a shock. The name almost brought tears to my eyes, since the name Grave's disease sounds worse than what it really is. I know I talked about this a month ago. But at that time it didn't have a name.

It's not like life changed a lot from when I talked about last month. It's still waking up in pain, or not being able to sleep because my intestine starts gurgling. I wake up, struggle to eat because my thyroid gets so inflamed sometimes, it feels like food gets caught in my throat, so I prefer soft foods, or small foods so that doesn't happen. 

So long story short, my body believe's that there are foreign invaders trying to attack me but instead it attacks itself. While it attacks itself it throws my immune system and my reproductive system into a tailspin for lack of a better term. If that's not bad enough I have chronic pain, and headaches, while I'm trying to peal my self from my bed. Then at night I have trouble sleeping. Going to the store is a chore within itself, already having anxiety and being Aspie (Asperger's) going out freaks me out, and now that I know my Graves can cause bulging eyes, shaky hands, and anxiety. Yeah, needless to say it's not cool. 
It isn't the physical pain that I hate, it's the memory, lack of concentration, and brain fog that bother me. Never used to be a problem, being able to write, now here I am, worrying if I wrote down a word correctly or know how to write a sentence period. 

To everyone who's walking down this path or have been down it. ✊✊We've got this. 


Other links you might be interested in:
Don't be afraid of all of my updates.
💚You Can't Begin To Understand Chronic Pain Unless You've been there
6 typical autoimmune questions
💚My weekly Holter monitor
Auto-immune support pet?! Wah?!

Monday, November 6, 2017

Don't be afraid of all of my updates.

There's a ton to update on, I'm sorry I've been preoccupied with appointments Halloween related stuff. So I'll try to update as much as can as of right now. It's all a bunch of craziness all rolled into one. So bear with me, I'll have a normal (hopefully)

Finally diagnoses 

I never thought I'd be a beat point in my life where I actually knew what was wrong with me. I admit I almost cried at the doctor's office, not because I was scared, but because I was finally able to understand what's going on with me, I had no clue. Last week I was given not one, but two diagnoses. One I knew about somewhat, another I knew nothing about. I have Fibromyalgia and Grave's Disease. Both of the names sound scary and rest assured, they're not as scary as they sound, I promise. 

Fibromyalgia: Fibromyalgia is not an autoimmune problem, but it does accompany autoimmune problems. A person with fibromyalgia can be tired, have joint and muscle pain, brain fog, and even IBS. This actually gives the answer to why I'm sore and sleepy all the time. 

Graves, on the other hand, is an autoimmune disease. It's one of the most common thyroid problems. It can't be cured, but it can be controlled and may go into remission. If it's not controlled properly the person with Grave's can die. I wish that said, I want to live as long as I can.

With Grave's Disease, I could sweat a lot, have a fast heart rate, high blood pressure, sensitivity to heat and even diarrhea. It was my plus that gave away that there may have been a problem at home and at the doctor's office my heart rate was in the 110s to the 130s. 

Phew, what a long list of symptoms. It's quite obvious that most of the time I feel run down and totally exhausted to the point all I want to do is sleep, but I haven't done much. With the brain fog, there's not much I can do other than doing something that doesn't involve much brain activity.

My Nails
As much as I wanted to dedicate a whole blog entry about my nails, I just can't. I feel bad that I couldn't, but I can explain why and hopefully my reasoning makes sense because it just wasn't because I was unhappy with the nails.

It was a day or two before Halloween and my nails started chipping and looking bad. When I mean chipping, I mean a nice piece of nail polish came off. So for the night at my step daughter's Halloween Party, I decided I wear my black nail polish instead. I didn't want chipped nail polish, yuck! 

Halloween & Shirts
On Halloween, we didn't do much at all, but during the weekend we had family time. Eating candy, chilling and playing around. But it wasn't until after Halloween that stuff was awesome. I love after Halloween sales and usually buy the item as a normal piece of decor. When it comes to after Halloween sales, I do love buying shirts that are extremely cheap. 

This was my shirt haul the day after Halloween, a Beetlejuice shirt, ribs and spider t-shirt and a Jack Skellington T-shirt. 

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Fridays with Freya Happy One Year Freya: The life and story of a furry little kitty roommate I've grown to loveHappy One Year Freya: The life and story of a furry little kitty roommate I've grown to love

Today's Wednesday is a very special day. It's still a day that I talk about Freya, but it's actually very special. At least both her and I think it's something special. Yesterday (Halloween) marked a year since Freya has entered my life. Crazy isn't it? I can't believe my little love bug has been here for a year.


Freya's Backstory 
I've briefly touched on how we met Freya but I never truly told the full story about how Fraya became part of my family. The story is quite interesting, to say the least. 

A year ago on Halloween, it was dark and cold. I was antsy to take a walk go get a snack from the store that was literally under a block away. I wanted a snack. That's how I am when I think about getting a snack, "If you take a walk to get it, it'd be better than driving."

On the way out of the apartment, a cute little kitten ran in. I didn't see much just a torishell who was unbelievably skinny. She looked up at me and my husband. As we were talking, she ran into the neighbor's apartment. We assumed that their cat got out. Their cat was adorable anyway. Instead they picked her up and carried her out. This kitten tried to enter two other apartments because it was cold. 

I forgot something in our apartment or something, and she went running in. The neighbor picked her up and carried her out for us, but this kitten was determined to stay in the apartment. It was cold, my husband felt sympathy for her so she had a chance to stay for the night.

Of course, this kitten sidetracked my plans on going to the store to pick up snacks. I didn't them anyway. This kitten was totally aware of that. She was already telling me what to do even before she told me to start this blog and she didn't even know me. 

She believed that this apartment was her home. What cat climbs onto someone's bed and tries to lick their butt? Freya did. Monkey gave her the nastiest look when she climbed on to the bed and licked her self.  This cat, which we called Pumpkin for awhile had sass, tortie sass! A cute sassy pants none the less! 

My husband still wanted to get rid of Pumpkin, but it wasn't until a week (and name change later) when my step daughter came to visit. Pumpkin  Freya, and my step daughter became best friends. Everything changed then for him. I was really hoping to Freya's owners because I didn't want somone else to feel bad.

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into a month. Freya's old owners were never found, so I made the choice that she would be spayed and we would end up adopting her. Yeah, she's the sassiest cat I've met, but she's an adorable sassy pants. 

That's how it happened, that's how we adopted little miss Freya. The guess is that she was born in June or July, but I really don't know when she was born, but it's not that important 😉

Some pictures from the past year
A lot of these pictures have been posted already but, because it's been a year and there's a bit of a change in the past year for Princess Sassy pants. 
Keep me safe I'll keep you safe

This was literally one of the first pictures we have of Freya, 

"I am a Freya on a table" 

Sassy Pants

Human girl, I'm a stuffed ammimal 

"Love me I am the cat"  

"if you don't want to write about the Freya I'll do it myself"

"Whats more important than the TV? Me!"


sleep time with the cat


We planned on getting rid of these and this is what my kitty friend does."My bed, my home" 

Crossposted @ FuzzyFurryPaws.com

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Very easy White Chocolate Peanut Puttercups


Ever see a recipe online and try to have your spin on it? Paleo hacks had peanut butter cups. My only problem is I'm really not paleo and I'm not a fan of dark chocolate. I decided to change the whole recipe to suit me. I know it's a bit scary to change a recipe and hope you don't fail. It was my main fear.

If I had to pick a Reese's at the store and only stick to one type it would be the white chocolate. I'm one of those weirdoes that like white chocolate better than milk or dark. I had to pick up cupcake wrappers at the store and passed by the baking chips and found white chocolate and I had my mind. I was going to give my peanut butter cups my take. 




To make these you'll need: 
2 cups of white chocolate chips 
1/2 cup of peanut butter 
2 tablespoons of coconut oil
2 tablespoons of syrup 

What you're going to need to do
  • Melt one cup of white chocolate in a small saucepan with 1 tablespoon of coconut oil.
  • Put the white chocolate in a cupcake liner (in a tin), make sure the white chocolate is about even. 
  • Put the tin in the freezer for 20 minutes or until frozen. 
  • While the white chocolate is freezing mix 2 tablespoons of syrup and the 1/2 cup of peanut butter together
  • Put the peanut butter in the tin on top of the white chocolate at the bottom. 
  • Melt the other cup of white chocolate and the remaining coconut oil
  • Put the melted oil over the peanut butter
  • Put the tin back in the freezer for at least 20 minutes
  • Let thaw for a bit
  • Enjoy 





Wednesday, October 25, 2017

The humans are making new friends, and I don't like it

This blog has been written by Freya's human girl but dictated by Freya

Our human neighbors adopted a new puppy. His name is Clyde, and he loves to wake me up. I can hear him bark, bark, bark when he's in the hallway of the apartment. I don't like it when the humans come in from petting him because they smell like a puppy, and I'm the kitty I deserve the love. I want all the humans loves! 
human girls hand. 
The little human girl also has a new kitty. I don't like it. I'm the only one. I don't even let Monkey share with me. Monkey is not supposed to give humans all the love. They don't give human kisses like I do, give the humans the upside down super kitty, or even give them penguins.

I do love the human girl, the adult human she tries to give me all the lovings that she can. She doesn't even spend time with Clyde or the new kitty, she picks me. She even picked me the day we met.I loved her and she became my best friend.Humans are great friends. 


Today I want to share a photo of me when I met girl human. Then I'm going to night-night.
I love you guy and girl humans 




 my bed I picked it. 
The entry is cross posted on Fuzzy Furry Paws

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

New nails lets put it to the test

Dear Sally Hansen, your nail polish is so beautiful, I don't know what I'd do without it. The color is the most amazing thing ever. You really get me. 
It's kind of funny I was sure when I heard that Sally Hansen had brand new nail gel nail polish, I was a bit skeptical. Why on earth would someone want gel nail polish that looks good even after 14 days? Mhmm! Yep, it's not that having a nail polish that lasts 14 days is a bad thing, it's the fact that their claims feel a little farfetched, who ever heard of a nail polish lasting more than five minutes? 


These are my nails, the gold (Tera-Coppa) is the nail polish in question. In this picture, my nail polish was three days old. You'd think by three days there'd be some wear and tear. There has yet to be one chip. I even used the blue to see if it was just the top coat that was amazing. Right now, I'm not sure what's more amazing the top coat or the gold nail polish. I'm not even sure what's going to happen when they hit the one-week checkpoint. I'm hoping that they'd withhold everything that's thrown at them. There's only one way I can find out, whether the storm. 

I just went to their site and checked out the lowest reviews vs the highest reviews. The lowest said stuff like it was too hard to apply and that it didn't dry quick enough. I had no problem putting it on and it dried after five minutes like the nail polish said it would. Now here I am having panic attacks. What if this stuff isn't like it says that it is? I'm going to be in a world of hurt. 

So here I am, confused, and a bit excited to see if my experiences are going to differ from the people who gave their opinion on Sally Hansen's website. I can't really give much of an outcome as of yet. But it seems to be one of those so far, so good type of scenarios. Who knows, by day 10 my nails might chip, they may look like a science experiment gone wrong.  

Stick around to find out what's going to happen.



Monday, October 23, 2017

I love the fall don't you? 11 fall related questions




Yikes, I've been a bit gone the last few days, I didn't mean for that to happen. I really didn't. But since fall's coming and there's really so much to blog about as far as fall is concerned, I needed to get my mind set straight for the fall. Here's one of those Tags/Challenges to push me into the right direction.

1. Favorite Fall scent.

My favorite fall scent happens to be apple pie. The apple pie smell with the warm cinnamon on top. Yum. I'm sure it can be for more than just fall time. But it's what reminds me of fall.

2. Best way to spend a rainy day.

Sleeping is a way to spend a rainy day right? If it's not sleeping, I like to be creative. I can't go outside at all when it's raining, so I usually write or find something to occupy my time. Freya believes that when it's raining it's time to cuddle.

3. Favorite Fall Drink.

I love warm apple cider. The warm feeling in my belly and the apple taste. Thinking about warm apple cider, I really should have got some the other day when the hubby asked to get some.

4. Football, yay or nay?

My dad, grandpa, and my uncle would be kicking my butt from their urn if they heard that I am not a fan of football. I don't know if it's because I'm a girl, or because I never really caught on to the game. I just don't like it. I'll pretend to root for the team they liked, but I'm not sure that actually counts.



5. Favorite article of clothing this Fall.

My favorite article of clothing this fall and almost every fall happens to be my one go to the article of clothing. Hoodies! I love reasons to wear hoodies almost everywhere. I don't care about the color as much as I like the nice warm feeling on my arms that the zip up hoodies while being able to keep the rest of me cool.


6. Haunted house, haunted hayride, or haunted corn maze?

Haunted Hayrides. I don't know where there's even going to be a haunted hayride, but those are what I've always liked. Hayrides, in general, are one of my favorite things. I haven't gone to one in ages, but they're always exciting.


7. The scariest movie you’ve ever seen…

Hm, I'm not really afraid of movies. I'd like to name one, but I really can't. If anything was remotely close it would be Boogyman, not because the movie was scary, but because I jumped so many darn times at home. At the theater, I wasn't scared at all.


8. Favorite candy to eat on Halloween?

I like Reese's, I like Reese's all year, to be honest. They're my favorite candy and probably the reason why I haven't lose weight.

9. What will you or your kids be this year?

I really have no clue. I haven't put much thought into Halloween at all. I really probably should, but I haven't. I guess I'll just wing it.


10. Favorite fall recipe.

Hmm, I love peanut butter rice crispy treats. They're gelatin free and taste great. I haven't made peanut butter rice crispy treats for what feels like forever. I'm going to have to make them soon though.

11. What is your Favorite thing about Fall?

I love the colors of the leaves. The trees are so beautiful when they're changing colors. Nature is beautiful. I love everything about the beauty of the fall. 

Thursday, October 19, 2017

These are My top 10 favorite Halloween inspired movies for both kids and adults

Halloween is 11 days away. I love Halloween, it's one of my favorite holidays. There's no other holiday like it. You get to dress up and eat candy, oh and I can dress as spooky as I want and nobody's going to bat an eye. Yeah, I love Halloween.

What I really love is Halloween themed movies, both kids adult movies. It was tough to list my top 10 but after a bit of limiting my options, I found the 10 that are my absolute favorite movies.


1O. Casper the Friendly Ghost

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source: Roger Ebert
As soon as Casper came out on video, it was one of my favorite movies. I remember watching it back to back a few times and was even really exciting when I had a chance to watch Casper when I was in school. There's a small part of me that fell in love with Devon Sawa, at the end, but I'm almost sure I wasn't the only one that fell in love when Casper turned into a real boy for an hour. 

O9. The Crow 2: City of Angels

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I loved The Crow 2 City of Angels only because of the fact that a father could love his son so much that he'd come back to kill the people who killed his son and him. I didn't like this movie as much as I loved the first one. But it was a very good movie.


O8. Rosemary's Baby

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source: Roger Ebert 
Rosemary's Baby was a movie I was late to the game on. I didn't see it when I was younger. The second I saw the movie a few years ago made me realize this movie is awesome. I love the storyline. For those who haven't seen it, I won't use any spoilers, but the movie is a classic.


O7. Beetlejuice

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Beetlejuice is one of those movies that I watched almost my whole life and I can almost quote the movie word for word. I even learned how to swear from the movie. This movie taught me everything I need to know and taught me never to say anything three times, or you're in a world full of hurt. 

O6. Poltergeist 

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If one movie could turn someone on to the paranormal this is the movie that would do it. I was young, and remember Poltergeist turning me on to my love of ghosts and the paranormal. Even though it sounds dangerous I'd loved to be sucked into a TV. I would welcome it at least for a little while. 

O5.The Craft

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Catholic Schoolgirls check, witches, check, death check. I think it has everything that most movies have and more. I left my original copy at my mom's friend's house on Halloween and never got the movie back, so in the end, I ended up buying myself another copy of the movie since it always seems to go on sale around Halloween time.


O4. Trick 'R Treat

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I love Sam, he's such a cute movie character, even if he is the 'bad guy' in the movie. The neat thing about Trick 'R Treat is that there's a handful of events that don't seem connected to the end. Sam ties all of the characters together. 


O3. Corpse Bride

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True love and Halloween are two of my favorite things. I went to the theater to see this movie. Little did I know that The Corpse Bride would be one of those beautifully made movies. I love Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Helena Botem Carter. The three are an amazing trio. I've had a debate whether to be Victoria or Emily for Halloween a few times.


O2. The Nightmare before Christmas

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Nothing excites me more than The Nightmare Before Christmas. Jack is my main man, and he will always have a place in my heart. I have Jack Skellington pants, a Jack Skellinton t-shirt and even a Jack and Sally Day of the Dead Funko Pop. It was really tough picking between this movie and The Crow for the number one spot.  

O1. The Crow

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The Crow is my relationship goal type of movie. Eric loved Shelly, and it was obviouos from this movie. It's still a bit tough to watch the movie and remember that Brandon Lee passed away. He was a very brilliant and handsome man. The Crow is my favorite movie of all time. It will always be my all time favorite movie.



Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Two new things for Freya. One of them human girl made just for me wait until you see what it is!


It's been a very busy week for me, the cute and lovely Miss Freya. Really it has. Human girl says that in two more weeks I've lived here for a year. I'm not sure how long a year is but, I'm told that's how long I've been here. I like this place, they love me here, and I love the human children, those are really exciting.


My latest yummy yummies 


Girl human said that I could get more of this cat food if I really really liked it. I did really really like it, but I ate it so quickly it made me puke. Human girl says that happens when kity cats eat too fast. I feel bad because she had to clean it up and told met that my kitty cat puke was still warm and smelt like cat puke. I sorry girly human Freya didn't mean to make a mess.

I only puked it up because there was only one container and Monkey and I had to share, I didn't want to share mine. Not even with Monkey so I ate it quickly.

But I did like it, she says she'll think before giving me chicken and gravy kitty cat food again.


My new bed

Man human and girl human have way too many sheets and stuff so they put it in this nice blue tote. I disagree they don't have too many sheets and this pillow that's at the bottom of this tote thing, my goodness, I like it. It's nap time for the worlds cutest little kitty cat. I don't think they need to get rid of it do you? It's really extra comfortable. I love it! Thank you human girl and human man for the best kitty bed in the whole wide world.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

30 of the very merry Halloween questions you can't help but want to answer


I missed last weeks Tag Thursday, and because I'm going to be more holiday friendly in some of my posts. I figured doing a Halloween tag would be in order. I love Halloween, and to answer questions to help prepare people for my next few posts feels like I'm going in the right direction

1. Favourite horror or Halloween-themed song?
That's a tough question I think that my favorite Halloween song is "I put a spell on you," there are many people who sang the song. So to give a name of who sang it or the version I like the best is tough.

2. Name something you wouldn’t want to run into in a dark forest or in an abandoned building.
A rabid wolf. Ghosts don't scare me, but rabid animals are scary.

3. Have you ever played with an Ouija Board?
I've played with a pocket Ouiji Board when I was younger.

4. Favourite horror monster or villain?
Sam from Trick R Treat.

5. The creepiest thing that’s ever happened while you were alone?
I wouldn't call it being alone and it wasn't as creepy as it was an odd moment. I was asleep and woke up from a nap and saw a guy sitting in the chair next to the futon I was laying on. I looked again he was gone.

6. If you were dared to spend the night in a “haunted house”, would you do it?
Yes, I'd love to. I would end up ghost hunting.

7. Are you superstitious?
Not at all.

8. Do you ever see figures in your peripheral vision?
Yes, I have. It's not scary as it is odd.

9. Which urban legend scares you the most?
One of the people having their kidneys cut out when they're at hotels


10. Do you prefer gore or thrillers?
Gore. I'm weird, but I love gore. If I wasn't so squeamish or feeling like I'm violating someone, I would love to work with the dead. 

11. Do you believe in multiple dimensions or worlds?
Yes, to an extent. I'm sure there are things more than what we see. 

12. Ever made a portion of any sort?
Nope, I haven't' made any potion. I'd like to try to, my ancestors did it.


13. Do you get scared easily?
I jump and get startled easily but I don't get scared. If that makes any sense.

14. Have you ever played Bloody Mary?
Nope, I was one of those kids that were afraid and was sure something bad was going to happen to me. There was a point that I couldn't sleep facing any mirrors that were in my bedroom because they kind of scared me.

15. Do you believe in demons/the devil?
I don't know/ I think there could the devil and demons, but I don't have any proof.

16. You’re home alone but you hear footsteps in your house, what do you do?
I'm already armed with a fake katana if I hear footsteps.

17. If you got trapped in one scary movie, which would you choose?
Saw

18. If you could only wear one Halloween costume for the rest of your life, what would you be?
My self, I'm scary enough, aren't I? I think I'd go with a zombie pinup girl.

19. would you ever go to a graveyard at night?
Sure, everyone, there is dead right? The living scares me more than the dead.

20. In a zombie apocalypse, what is your weapon of choice?
I'd probably go for a small handgun of some sort. I need something that wouldn't hold me down.

21. Would you rather go to a Halloween party or go trick or treating?
Trick or Treating, I don't drink and I love candy.

22. You’re in a horror movie. Are you the final girl, the first to die, the comic relief, the skeptic, the smart one, or the killer?
I'd be the first to die, no doubt about it.


23. Do you have to watch something happy after watching a horror movie so you can go to sleep?
Nope. Usually, my dreams have nothing to do with what I watched before.

24. Whilst watching scary movies, are you the person who yells at the characters, the person with their eyes covered the whole time or the person who falls asleep?
Neither. I just sit and watch the movies usually not moving or jumping, until it's the second or third time watching the movie.

25. Are you the one who gets scared, or the one who does the scaring?
I'm the one that gets scared, or should I say spooked. I jump easily.


26. The favorite scary book?
I used to love the Fear Street Books, I didn't have a favorite book though

27. How old were you when you saw your first horror movie?
I think I was about 8ish.

28. What was your first Halloween costume?
I think I was a pumpkin

29. What are you going to be for Halloween this year?
Myself, I'm not sure I'm doing anything for Halloween

30. If you could have a spooky Halloween pet (black cat, owl, bat, rat, wolf), what would you pick?
It's a black cat or a rat. 

Monday, October 16, 2017

Sometimes my reviews can be really weird. I can't believe I did that


I never wrote a post as weird as this one, honestly! It's not really personal as it is a weird post. I was reluctant to post about this product not because I couldn't I just didn't know how to post about it. It was something that I'm not used to posting or knowing how to talk about. The topic? Couch covers. You know the things that keep the dirt off of your couch. It keeps your couch looking pretty. I don't mean sheets, I don't know how many times growing up we only used sheets.

This couch cover is not your grandma's plastic couch cover. It's a beautiful tanish color and is easily adjustable. It can fit over almost any couch chair or love seat. At first, like almost anything, it's a bit difficult to figure out how it works, even with instructions. A least in my opinion. But once you get past the whole, "It's kind if difficult thing," it isn't that tough to put on and it looks very nice.

So as natural, I had to take a picture of my couch, it's the weirdest thing ever, taking a picture of your couch just for a photo. The couch that Freya loves to scratch, a scratched up couch with a couch cover makes for a really strange photo, but I guess that's how it is when you need to do something right? A strangely scratched couch. But I scratched that idea myself and went with the cover off the couch I didn't want to make this picture weird.

If it makes matters worse, I tried to make a video for it (which I will not share here) where I'm doing a review while my Bentyl kicks in and I'm staring and trying to figure out how to explain a couch cover. Maybe eventually I'll figure out what to do for something like this in the future. But be rest assured the cover was a success but I was a failure.

If you're interested check here: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B01FPJDEP8


Friday, October 13, 2017

10 Times Freya Inspired me To Be my Best Self

I never saw Freya as a cat that's pushed me to be an amazing person, but looking back at the past year. She has, and because of that. I am so happy to have such an amazing cat in my life. She's an amazing little furry friend.

1. She forces me to get out of bed some mornings: Freya loves to wake me up in the morning by stepping on my neck or on my chest and purring really loud. It doesn't matter if she has food or not. She's stepping on me and letting me know it's morning and we need to spend time together.

2. She knows the perfect way to relax me: If I'm tired and she knows it, she'll come and crawl right on my arm, in such a way that calms me to the point that I fall asleep.

3. Freya makes sure I don't overeat when Freya's around: Freya always wants my food. She's a sweet little kitten.

4. She's a creative influence: When I want to write about something. Freya's always around giving me ideas. If I want to play video games she's around.

5. I have someone to talk to: I have other people to talk to, but Freya on the other hand, if I talk to her, she's not judging me. She's just sitting there purring and giving me those beautiful eyes.

6. She's stopped me from going to the store: This is not the same as checking out what I'm eating. The night she joined our family, she stopped us from going to the store. I was going to go to the grocery store for an energy drink, and candy. Thank you, Miss Freya.

7. I now have a cute kitty water bottle thing: When in pain nothing helps more than a cute and cuddly Freya. She's warm and she's very interactive.

8. She's taught me that I need to sit other places: If you move your feet you lose your seat. It's her motto. I don't mind sitting on the floor every now and then. It's more comfortable.

9. If I want to lose weight all I have to do is copy Freya: The arching her back, running from one room to another and all of the stretches she does.

10. She's intuned to my feelings: Freya is intuned to my pain and tiredness. Nobody has been able to read me more than she does.

Thursday, October 12, 2017

You Can't Begin To Understand Chronic Pain Unless You've been there

I haven't been on or updated much on my health. I do apologize and I didn't want to keep everyone out of the loop of what has been happening healthwise. Because a lot has been happening, and I'd like to help everyone understand what life is like with invisible and chronic illnesses. 

Less Stomach Pain

There is some really good news that I want to bring up first. Good news is great! I wish I could start every day with good news and tons of positivity. The good news is that since I have almost stopped dairy, the only day I actually had it this month knowingly was when the hubby made lasagna. I love lasagna and sadly veggie cheese does not melt. It turns into rubber, almost and I'm sure it could be bounced like a ball if I wanted to. But since that was the only time. I've been having less stomach pain than I have been. I'm proud!

My last diagnosis

I had to have my Thyroid Uptake test rescheduled, I'll explain more about it a different day. But because of that my diagnosis lies in the balance. It's either Thyroid issues or I may have Fibromyalgia, which is an auto-immune problem. I'm pretty much convinced that my body hates me. At least I'm a step closer to knowing what's wrong and how to fix it.

Another change in diagnosis is my migraines have been changed to cluster headaches. They're a bit different than actual migraines. Cluster headaches can happen in a certain period of time, like a few days. 

Medications and how they make me feel


My medication list is still pretty much crazy. It's probably not much different than most people's and I was suggested to be put on Lyrica or something of the sort. But my list is Indomethacin once a week when my headaches happen, Bentyl (when needed), Meloxicam once a day and Effexor once a day. 

The medication list is nothing like the side effects and the way I feel when I take my medications. Most of them can make me drowsy. I'm pain-free but drowsy and don't even get me started on trying to type when you're drowsy, I'm not even sure how to do it. The drowsiness is the reason why I can't cut caffeine yet. I can't function if I don't have something caffeine in it. I've tried. 

What it feels like being in my shoes right now

I wouldn't want to wish how I feel on a daily basis to anyone. If someone who's had a perfect bill of health felt the way that I do every day, with or without my medication, I'm sure they'd be driven crazy. 

As soon as I get out of bed, I'm tired, it doesn't matter if I sleep four hours or fourteen hours it all feels the same. Because I'm tired, and wake up with a stiff neck and back pain doesn't mean that I can lay around all day. I have housework, dishes, the cat box, cleaning up around the house and putting away laundry. It's exhausting. I'm happy I have a husband who will make dinner. I'd make dinner if I felt better.

When I can time to relax, and if I'm having stomach pain I take a Bentyl and write a bit I can't do anything else, as soon as Bentyl kicks in, I fight with fatigue again, and have to drink something to counteract it. While I'm sedated with Bentyl it I still have pain, I'm so achy, on a day to day basis. I want to cry. 

Basically, pain and tiredness are all that I know.  What I wouldn't do to have energy and feel like I can run around and have some fun. Typing words some days feel like the hardest chore I've done. It's the main reason why I'm MIA for some days. I don't want to be MIA but the pain and tiredness envelope me. 

If anyone else feels the way that I do remember, you're strong. You got this. Don't worry what others tell you.